Covenant School killer Audrey Elizabeth Hale, a biological female who identified as a transgender male at the time of her March 27, 2023 attack, wrote a three-page journal entry titled “My Imaginary Penis” that was included in the writings recovered from her vehicle.
The Tennessee Star confirmed on Wednesday it obtained nearly four dozen pages of Hale’s writings from a source familiar with the Covenant investigation, including the March 11, 2023 entry discussing her desire to have a male anatomy.
Hale’s diary or journal entry begins with the title “My Imaginary Penis” and includes a crude drawing.
“My penis exists in my head. I swear to god I’m a male,” wrote Hale in the diary or journal recovered by police. She then wrote about her desire to have a penis for the purpose of heterosexual sex with a woman.
While the entry is sexually explicit in nature, Hale also wrote about her experience using the name Aiden, which she began using during her transition. Hale explained that using the name on a job application for a delivery position resulted in issues with the company’s background check.
She also described being raised a girl as “torture.” She claimed she feared “being called a dyke or a f*****” during high school before feeling liberated in college and eventually learning about transgenderism in her early 20s.
“I finally found the answer – that changing one’s gender is possible,” wrote Hale before claiming her mother opposed the idea.
Hale explained, “What she believes, how she grew up, conservatively, and that LGBTQ – especially transgender – was an enigma, nearly non-existent.”
About her parents, Hale added, “I hate parental views; how my mom sees me as a daughter – and she’d not bear to want to lose that daughter because a son would be the death of Audrey.”
On the second page of the entry, Hale continued to disparage her parents for their alleged refusal to support her transition but also wrote about the advent of puberty blockers in 2007.
“I’d kill to have those resources; 2007 was the birth of puberty blockers and a newfound discovery for treatment of non-conforming transgender children,” wrote Hale. She then acknowledged, “I was in the 6th grade, puberty already hit me.”
At the bottom of the second page, and into the third, Hale revealed that she fantasized about experiencing intercourse as a man by creating scenes with her stuffed animals.
“I can pretend to be them [and] do the things boys do [and] experience my boy self as Tony,” which Hale explained is her “stuffed boy doll” which she wrote “is like the boy I am in another form.”
In the entry, Hale proceeded to describe simulating intercourse between the “stuffed boy doll” and another stuffed animal over the course of hours.
According to Hale, she began taking photos of the fantasy enactment and became so enamored that she lost track of time and could not visit the gym.
“God, I am such a pervert.” Hale wrote, “I waste too much time in my fantasies.”
Hale wrote the entry just 16 days before committing her attack on the Covenant School, which claimed the lives of three 9-year-old students and three adults.
Star News Digital Media, Inc., which owns and operates The Star, and the publication’s editor-in-chief, Michael Patrick Leahy, are plaintiffs in lawsuits seeking to compel the Metro Nashville Police Department (MNPD) and the FBI to release Hale’s writings, including those that have been called a manifesto.
An FBI memo to MNPD Chief John Drake in May 2023, published by The Star on Tuesday, “strongly” suggested withholding the release of “legacy tokens,” including written materials, after incidents like the Covenant School shooting.
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Tom Pappert is the lead reporter for The Tennessee Star, and also reports for The Pennsylvania Daily Star and The Arizona Sun Times. Follow Tom on X/Twitter. Email tips to [email protected].
Thank you Tennese Star for reporting not surpressing news.
This is why it was catagorized as a mental illness for a very very long time. Anyone still think all this gender BS is normal?
DD says; “No one dies when someone transitions.”
Except that most mass shooters lately have been trannies. So a lot of people die around them.
At least the author uses the correct pronoun.
“she”
The Counselor & her Vanderbilt teammates are criminals for not following the law, which they all take a vow to do in order to get licensed. Tgey cannot say they didnt know. They could have saved lives, but they chose to keep her intentions secret. The question is WHY???
What was in it for them?
But others may have also seen the RED flags. I thought RED FLAGS WAS SUCH A PRIOTITY FOR THE HIPPOCRITES ON THE LEFT.
Someone knew she bought several weapons. Did she go to a shooting range with someone? Where did she keep the weapons & munitions? I find it hard to believe, others in her mentally ill group did not know something.
STINKS LIKE A COVER UP.
Only their soul dies.
its not a him, she needed psychiatric counseling.
Make Psychiatry Great Again
this is a spiritual deficiency and mental illness.
This killer was a self-centered, hate-filled monster. SO, how does the medical industry, today’s society and social media “help” troubled young women like this? The medical industry affirms their psychosis and gives them male hormones and drugs that encourage their condition, and society and social media tell them what victims-full-of-justifiable anger and hate they should be, all while making their sexuality paramount in their existence and identity. Sad and 180 degrees BACKWARDS from what we should be doing, imho.
Gee if only hormones in foods were better regulated to stop disregulation so that people would stop being gender confused due to what they eat or drink.
That they are allowed and in so many things means the clowns running the SHOW want it this way. Past time to hold those clowns Accountable for the destruction their Policies have produced for American Tax Payers.
Perhaps if ‘her’ parents had allowed him to be who he knew he was, he wouldn’t have snapped and killed innocent people.
No one dies when someone transitions.
Extremely mentally ill.
Did the culture protect LGBT culture at Vanderbilt keep her Vanderbilt counselor from reporting the threat as required?